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Who am I?

That is a good question dear reader. My name is Max Blaska. I am an almost 40 year old Evangelical Christian. And before you leave fleeing in terror because of that phrase let me explain my story.

My parents weren’t very religious. We were cultural Catholics. I first started believing in God when I was 12 and in Boy Scouts. I became the troop Chaplin. I dragged  my parents to church. I got confirmed and my faith stayed strong.

Unfortunatly the hypocrisy of getting kicked out of a Catholic high school and the priest sex scandal killed my faith. I still believed that Jesus was a great teacher but I didn’t believe in a God that would allow His followers to do such bad stuff. I didn’t try a Protestant church because of people like Jerry Falwell and Pat Robertson.

In 2008 something fantastical happened to me. Sarah Palin helped bring me to Christ. It was September of that year. There was a day called pulpit Sunday. A day when churches advocate for how their congregants should vote. And of course they were urging them to vote for McCain/Palin.

This angered me a lot. So I did what any person would do. I sent e-mails to the top “evangelical” leaders asking them how they can support policies that go against Christ so much. Only Rick Warren’s church contacted me back.

We had a nice talk and he asked me if I belong to a faith community. That make me think that I was looking from the outside in and not actually at the table. That was a Friday. That night I prayed for the first time in years. Well I always prayed when I was on a plane during liftoff and touchdown. But this was the first prayer I made when I was on Terra Firma.

The next day I was at work at Boston Store and a co-worker overheard that I was talking about looking for a church. She told me about Christ Presbyterian Church and told me “they love everyone there. It doesn’t matter who you are”.

So, I thought that I would give it a chance. I went to the more contemporary service. I heard the praise music. I think two of the songs were “Happy Day” and “Here We Come to Worship.” I remembered that I always cringed when those commercials for praise music CDs came on the television.

He then started His sermon and he played the guitar and played Bobby Dylan’s “You Gotta Serve Somebody” and his sermon was that it doesn’t matter if we are evangelical or social justice based. It doesn’t matter if you are a Republicsn or a Democrat. What matters is serving God.

I knew I was home. I found my spiritual family. I went home and prayed again and I felt warmth surround me and peace and I swear I heard in the back of my head “Let There Be Peace on Earth” one of my favorite hymns from when I was younger. I was a born again evangelical social justice Presbyterian.

But I also was very angry. The religious right almost blocked me from God. They tried to kill my faith and they almost got away with it. From that day forward I started speaking out against the religious right. I don’t call them evangelical. I don’t call them fundamentalist. I call them out for what they are apostates.

That is the reason why I made this blog. Donald Trump is a clear and present danger. Not just to our nation but to our faith.

True Christians have to come forward and speak out in a clear calm voice. They do not represent us.

God Bless



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Talent From Both of my Fathers Part 2

In my last blog I wrote about my father David and how he inspired me to write. Today I am going to discuss my other father, my Heavenly Father, God.

I am writing this on Thanksgiving 2020. I just watched a PBS documentary on the Pilgrims. I last watched it 5 years ago. Since then I got into ancestry and found out that I have ancestors that were at Plymouth Colony. William Brewster who signed the Mayflower Compact and Katherine Marbury, the sister of Anne Hutchinson who was banished from the colony and her husband Richard Scott helped found the Providence colony. More about that later.

My 12th great grandfather. Pilgrim William Brewster

As a Christian I believe that Bible to be the inspired word of God. And he had great writers working for him. My favorites though are the prophets. Isaiah and Jeremiah in particular. They were writing in times of great strife and political corruption. They were not afraid to speak truth to power even if it meant persecution, imprisonment, or being thrown down a well.

Now Samual, Jeremiah, Isaiah, and Ezekiel all talked to God and God talked to them. They were prophets in the truest sense of the word. I have never had that honor but I do believe that God gives all of us talents to use. Gifts of the spirit and prophecy is one. There have been many people with prophetic voices throughout history.

This is I think one of the best writings of any prophet. It sums up the struggle against corruption and how false religion abuses the poor and makes a mockery of what God wants

Actually when I spoke up from the gallery when the Wisconsin Assembly was trying to pass a Bible Recognition week resolution I quoted from Isaiah 1. It wasn’t just that it was a flagrant violation of the separation of church and state. It was flagrant hypocrisy because Robin Voss and his ilk voted against the poor, the homeless, and against expanding Medicaid . So I read

Isaiah 1 12 When you come to appear before me,
who has asked this of you,
this trampling of my courts?
13 Stop bringing meaningless offerings!
Your incense is detestable to me.
New Moons, Sabbaths and convocations—
I cannot bear your

I couldn’t get any more out because Robin Vos pointed his gavel at me and asked the police to escort me out. The irony of being kicked out for reading the book that he wanted to be recognized may have been lost on him. But it wasn’t lost on me.

The proudest day of my life was when he kicked me out of the Capital’s Assembly gallery. His face was read and he pointed his gavel like it could kill. But all I was doing was reading the book he so cherished.

I sometimes wonder what would the prophets do if they lived today? Would Isaiah have a blog? Would Jeremiah have an Instagram account? Would Ezekiel have a YouTube channel. Social media is the public square of today.

Jan Hus, Martin Luther, John Calvin, John Knox and the other leaders of the reformation were not perfect people but they had a prophetic voice. They spoke up when they saw corruption in the church. They lead a revolution eliminating road blocks that the ancient Catholic Church put between man and his God. I have a joke about Martin Luther but I will post it at the end of the blog.

This comes to my genealogy. My family has a history of speaking truth to power. My 11th Great Grandfather was a character. He was arrested not once, not twice but three times. He spoke out against the corruption in the Anglican Church and in his trial in November 1578 the Bishop of London John Aylmer called him an “ ass, an idiot, and a fool” he sent him to Marshalsea Prison. I was a notorious prison and he was sent there for speaking up. He knew he would go to jail and he did it anyway.

My ancestor and inspiration Frances Marbury

I wonder if facing the prospect of jail would I be willing to speak out against corruption. But when trolls call me names like idiot, a moron, or a libtard, I know that I am in good company. He had two daughters. One would be embroiled in a controversy

The other was my 10th great grandmother who with her sister and her husband Richard Scott would found the Providence Plantation colony. And their great grandson would become governor of Rhode Island, and revolutionary Stephen Hopkins. He was not the drunk portrayed in the musical 1776 but he did like his hat. He would not even take it off for a painting.

Guess which one of the founding fathers is my ancestor.

When I write my blogs or make videos under the handle AVoiceCrying33 I feel the Holy Spirit at work. Most of the time I am a nervous anxious person obsessing about everything but when I am writing about God and about the Church and politics. I feel calm and alive. I thank God for this feeling and this gift.

I promised a Martin Luther Joke and I will deliver. Historians say that Martin Luther had irritable bowel syndrome. One day he had 95 feces. But what do you expect with a diet of worms.

God Bless you

Talent From Both My Fathers Part one

Now I don’t want to sound like Rush Limbaugh whose slogan is “Talent on Loan From God”. Personally viewing all the stuff that he has done, supported, and said I think that might be a blasphemy. His voice was not prophetic and had none of the gifts of the Holy Spirit. None of them could be used to describe Rush.

Galatians 5: 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control.

But starting to write blogs again made me think, where does my talent come from? So I am going to steal Rush’s line and make it better. I got my writing talent from both my fathers. And no, I have a dad and a mom. I am talking about my earthly father and my Heavenly Father. Christians have two fathers. And sometime the relationship with the former can affect the later.

Now show me a man who has not had a complicated relationship with his father and I will show you a liar. My dad and I have had our ups and downs but I love him with all my heart. I am a progressive Christian and he is the most conservative man in the liberal bastion of Madison WI.

We don’t agree on politics. He supported Trump. And of course I did not. He is not of the religious right school of conservatism. He is more the old school economic small government individual responsibility George Will conservatism. I like to describe him is if Rush Limbaugh and George Will somehow had a child it would be my father.

No matter how much we may disagree about politics. He is still the man and I am still the boy in this picture. And we love each other

My dad, David Blaska is also a great writer. He has been a writer ever since he wrote for the Bugtown Gazette. A paper he was editor and chief writer for that he created when he was a wee lad in Sun Prairie. He studied journalism and wrote and edited for the UW Oshkosh Advance Titan,Yes he was a liberal hippie back then. He wrote for a paper in Dekalb Illinois, the Waukesha Freeman and wrote for and was one of editors of the most liberal newspapers east of Berkeley and west of New York City. He now blogs.

He is a very talented writer. We may disagree on much such as the systematic problems in society. But he and I agree on much as well. We both believe that the progressive left have gone to far into victimhood and that the cancel culture is misguided at best and harmful at worst. And that looting and harassing innocent people is not a way to protest.

My mom also is a very talented writer as well. She writes about her memories growing up in the 50’s and 60’s and her experiences at her father’s rural tavern.

Talent is nature but I also think that it is nurture. My father always encouraged critical thinking as well as introduced me to the world of politics. My father was on the Dane County board from 1994-2006. I enjoyed campaigning with him and working on campaign leaflets.

I am grateful for the wit and intellectual curiosity that my dad gave me. We may be on different ends of the political spectrum but we can still be decent to each other as long as we now when to let politics lie.

That was part one. In Part two, I will discuss the most creative father in the universe, God. I will discuss the prophets, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, and C.S Lewis. I am nowhere near the stratosphere where they are but they are inspirations as well and if God wills it maybe Max Blaska might get to join them.

God Bless

Facebook: a Lifeline Cut For Me But Not For Steve Bannon

Last week Steve Bannon suggested that Dr. Anthony Fauci and FBI director Christopher Wray should be beheaded and that their heads should be put on spikes. Twitter has suspended him but Facebook has not disabled his account. Now I am not writing about his comments and if Facebook should suspend his account. I believe that those comments could be construed as a call to violence but that is not the reason for this article.

Steve Bannon and Donald Trump.

I have been a member of FaceBook for over 10 years. I was a member in good standing. I remember posting pictures when I was ordained a deacon back in 2010. I made my Facebook page into my own photographic history. I remember posting about how Mitt Romney and Paul Ryan would be the worst thing to happen to America if they got elected in 2012. We should be so lucky now. I found a great sci fi polling place that made brackets for everything from Star Trek to Time Travel movies. I participated in many challenges and found like minded people who I could rant with. I also joined right wing groups to sharpen by debating technique.

All that ended a month ago. When I tried to log on to post a picture of the poster of the latest horror movie I watched for Shudder’s 61 horror films in 60 days and I found out I was blocked out. Both out of Facebook and Facebook messenger.

Now there was no warning, no reason, and no recourse. I tried to appeal and only got this message

Warning We Cannot Review the Decision to Disable Your AccountYour Facebook account was disabled because it did not follow our Community Standards. This decision can’t be reversed.

Now I don’t know exactly why I was put in Facebook jail, losing access to all my photos, my sci-fi fan clubs, Facebook messenger, and my brothers and sisters in the emergent progressive Christian Church. But I do have an idea. I used Hitler’s quotes about him being a defender of Christianity to try to make a point that Trump is playing by the same playbook.

And for that, I lost it all?

I don’t know if I would call myself a Facebook addict. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression and Facebook was my main social outlet. I could chat and get support from other anxiety and depression sufferers from across the world. I could find progressive Christians like me who hated what was going on in this nation so I wouldn’t feel so alone.

I looked forward to waking up and seeing what I posted 5 or 10 years ago. I loved seeing what my church friends were up to. Because of quarantine I haven’t seen my faith family in person for a while but I could chat with them on Facebook messenger.

Now I have been watching Doctor Who on Britbox starting with the Unearthly Child. John Pertwee is my favorite Classic Doctor. I don’t care for Tom Baker. So I thought I would share this unpopular opinion on the Doctor Who Fan Facebook page and remembered, I can’t.

I was working on a film project with some local filmmakers and it was easier communicating via Facebook messenger than e-mail. But being banned means I have lost most of my contacts. And for someone with social anxiety Facebook messenger was the easiest way to communicate. My dreams are dealt a severe blow from some computer algorithm that finds me more dangerous than Steve Bannon or people lying about non existent voter fraud?

I did not spout hate. I did not post lies about political candidates. I did not call for anyone”s death. I just compared Trump to Hitler when it comes to pretending to be Christianity’s defender. And for that post I lost a lifeline. I am sure I am not the only one.

I also found out that most of my other applications, I signed up with Facebook so most of my data on those apps are gone as well. You know what they say “You don’t know what you got till it’s Gone”. Or taken away from you without any recourse.

The other bad thing about this is. I am starting to blog again and I used Facebook as a way to share my blogs. Now that avenue has been robbed from me. I guess I will just have to stick with Twitter. At least they don’t view me as a threat.

And you know what, if Facebook would remedy this I would go back on it without any reservations or hesitations. I just want that opportunity. But I am not Steve Bannon. I am not an alt-right news source. I am at the moment just a nobody. But I am a nobody who speaks up for righteousness and will continue to do so.

Who am I and what is 2TimothyTrumpism?

Hello. I thought I would reintroduce myself. I have just realized I haven’t posted a single blog this year. You would think a Christ centered political page would make at least one post in the most important election year in my lifetime if not America’s history.

We Had the Covid Pandemic that upended lives and ruined businesses. We had a president who didn’t seem to care much. A president who had superspreader rallies. You had Evangelical leaders double down on a very unChristian man. I don’t know if they did it out of fear or greed or hatred or whatever. It was just too much for me. I didn’t know what to write about because there was so much to write about and I was overwhelmed.

I even forgot about this blog until I got an E-mail announcing that I paid for another yearly subscription and I realized. I spent a hundred dollars doing nothing but being sheltered in my own cocoon being eaten alive by fear, anger, and anxiety. Things that should not go with a Christian worldview.

So I decided to write again and to really write. Try to build up this blog. I thought about changing the name of this blog because Trump barring a coup will not be president come January 20th 2021. But 2TimothyTrumpism will unfortunately remain. So the name stays.

The Meaning of the name.

The fake evangelicals and the false prophets who supported Trump will not go away, if anything they will get louder and louder. Some are already calling for God to send His angels to protect Trump from this stolen election.

Paula White, Donald Trump’s spiritual advisor and chief false prophet said this “

“So right now, every agenda that is being pushed, that can affect the release of a premature, satanic alignment that you do not desire, we break it right now. We override it right now. We override it, we overturn it, we overturn it right now, and it will be no more, it will be no more because it is our right by the blood of Jesus, and you will give it to us.

So, we call right now upon the heavens, we call upon angelic reinforcements, we command angels to be released at the command of your word right now. And we push back every agenda that would release a premature satanic agenda, in the name of Jesus. Anything that would be of an Antichrist spirit, we break it right now in the name of Jesus, every Antichrist spirit, we break it right now, every Antichrist agenda that is being pushed, we break it, we override it, we overturn it, we overturn it, we overturn it in the name of Jesus right now. God, we just declare that you will keep the feet of POTUS in his purpose in his position right now. We stop, and we override the will of man for the will of God, we override the will of man for the will of God, we override the will of man for the will of God.”

Now not every one of Trump’s 2 Timothy Supporters are like Paula White. But as a Christian it is those people that scare me the most. They are not only supporting a dangerous man, they are doing so with the name of Christ on their lips. This is blasphemy and it pushes people away from the faith.

That is why I have this blog and why I have to cut through the cocoon of fear, anxiety, and hopelessness and write write write.

God Bless you all.



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Who Put the Anti in the Anti-Christ?

People have been naming the antiChrist ever since the book of Revelation was written. Pre-millenialists believe that a wicked man will come forth and mislead the public and eventually will rule the world and only be defeated by the sword (the word) of God. I agree with them. I just believe that the antichrist will come not from where many of the pre-millenialists believe. Most people who favor that end times theology are conservative fundamentalist Christians who like to be called evangelicals.

Is Donald J Trump the anti-Christ? I don’t know for sure. Only God the father knows for sure. But I believe it is an 85% probability that he is. This series of blogs will say why I believe he could be the Biblical antichrist.

This blog will be about the prefix anti and how it applies to Donald Trump.

Anti as the opposite. Jesus is humble. Jesus is loving. Jesus is kind. Jesus is just and Jesus is the Truth. Trump is haughty, Trump hates latinos, muslims, the press and anyone who opposes him. Trump is mean spirited. Trump doesn’t understand the word justice. And Trump has lied so many times it is hard to keep count.

People have been naming the antiChrist ever since the book of Revelation was written. Pre-millenialists believe that a wicked man will come forth and mislead the public. And eventually will rule the world and only be defeated by the sword of God. I agree with them. I just believe that the antichrist will come from someplace many of the pre-millenialists believe. Most people who favor that end times theology are conservative fundamentalist Christians who like to be called evangelicals.

Is Donald J Trump the anti-Christ? I don’t know for sure. Only God the father knows for sure. But I believe it is an 85% probability that he is. This series of blogs will say why I believe he could be the Biblical antichrist.

This blog will be about the prefix anti and how it applies to Donald Trump.

Anti as the opposite. Jesus is humble. Jesus is loving. Jesus is kind. Jesus is just and Jesus is the Truth. Trump is haughty, Trump hates latinos, muslims, the press, anyone who opposes him. Trump is mean spirited. Trump doesn’t understand the word justice. And Trump has lied so many times it is hard to keep count

Anti as opposing. Jesus says we should take care of the poor. Trump is gutting the food stamp program in order to help pay for his tax cut for the very wealthy. Jesus tells us to love our enemies and not to slander. Trump does nothing but slander his enemies. Jesus says for us not to hoard wealth. Trump has made a living of hoarding extravegent amounts of money and with his economic policies allow others to do so. I haven’t found a single teaching of Jesus Christ that Trump hasn’t opposed.

Anti as substitute. In the Dark ages there was aa schism within the Roman Catholic Church. One faction supported the Pope in Rome while another supported a Pope in Paris. History records the Parisian Pope the anti-Pope.But I am sure that those who supported the Anti-Pope in Paris called the Roman Pope the anti-pope. Now THE Anti-Christ. The man who will come and lead millions to ruin and persecute the true church will eventually be treated like he is divine.

That I think has already begun to happen. You have Christians who say that a man who bragged about trying to commute adultery with a married woman when he himself was married is the anointed one, chosen by God. In Greek, the word Anointed one of God is Christos. They compare him to King David. Yes King David committed adultery and sent the wife of Bathsheba to his death. But King David did something that Trump never did. King David repented. If you read the Psalms King David was very humble. He knew his strengths and weaknesses. Trump has never apologized once.

Another person Trump is compared to is King Cyrus. He was the gentile King of Persia who allowed the Israelites in exile to return home to Judea and to rebuild the temple, the Holy place. There is a new temple society and they even made coins with King Cryrus and Trump the antichrist is supposed to pose as the best friend that Israel has ever had, I will talk more about that in my next blog.

Bill Maher, who I like as a comedian and a political commentator but who I do believe is a bigot when it comes to people of faith, but at least he attacks Christianity and Islam with equal vigor did a bit about this

This analogy really frustrated me for several reasons. Either they are saying that Trump is a righteous gentile who will save the Israel nation or that He is a Christian who will save America and “Her church”. Now before Jesus walked the earth God did anoint and appoint people to do his will. King David was the anointed King of Israel who God anointed through Prophet Samuel. And yes God anointed King Cyrus of Persia to usher the Israelites back to their homeland and their new temple after 70 years in exile.

I am not saying that God doesn’t anoint us. I believe in the gifts of the Holy Spirit. I believe that some are anointed to be evangalists, some to be teachers, and some to be prophets. In a way every Christian who follows Jesus Christ is anointed.

But we don’t need a new savior, another word for anointed one. We have one Savior and that is our Lord and teacher Jesus Christ. We don’t need a King David of America to make our nation and our faith great again. We don’t need an American King Cyrus to save Christianity from the maws of secularism and atheism. What we need is a Savior to save us from the religious right who have turned their back on Jesus’ teachings and a worshipping a false Christ. And that is Jesus.

Next Blog will be more interesting, we will go into scripture and try to answer is Trump the AntiChrist mentioned in Daniel, 2 Thessalonians 2 and the Book of Revelation.

The Hypocrisy of the Religious Right and Sexual Morality.

There is an old saying, “It is not the crime but the coverup that will get you”. The same thing is with sin. It is not the sin but the hypocrisy.

I can not judge another person’s sexual sins. Not with my struggles. But when you start judging others on their sins. When you talk about Christian morality while supporting Trump. When you attack a man in a committed marriage who just happens to be gay as a sexual degenerate you lose all rights to judge. I am not judging your sins, I am judging your hypocrisy.

If we make it another 50, hundred years future historians will be able to pinpoint the moment American white evangelical Christianity sold out. When they finally cemented their turning their backs on Jesus I think that they will point to October 7th 2016. When this was released.

Now Trump was no choir boy before this came out. He was accused of sexual misconduct by a dozen women. Some that he said he never knew, some that he had pictures with. This is a thrice married man who cheated on two of his wives. But this Access Hollywood tape, that was something else. He bragged about trying to commit adultery on his third wife. “I went on her like a bitch.” “Grab em by the pussy”. That tape should have been enough for Franklin Graham, Robert Jeffess, Lindsay Graham et all to just say “its not worth it. I am not voting for Hillary but I am not voting for this man.

For more than twenty years these were the people that said sexual morality matters. “If a man can’t be faithful to his wife, you can’t expect him to be faithful to the nation.” Those who attacked Bill Clinton for his sexual sins and borderline crimes were calling the tape “disturbing but just locker talk”

He was not making lewd sexual comments. He was going on about how he tried to commit adultery. He did make a public apology. After midnight but he didn’t apologize for trying to get it on while he was married with a married woman. He apologized for “using bad language” and then he started attacking Bill Clinton on his sexual sins. That video is the epitome of hypocrisy.

Ok I understand they held their nose and voted against Clinton, the lesser of two evils in their opinion. I voted for neither. I voted for McMullin. But at least they could be honest. If they said “Yes, Donald Trump is an adulterer and a philander but he will give us the Supreme Court. So we are ok with being hypocrites as long as what we want done.” But they didn’t do that.

But I think the nail on the coffin for the religious right and their moral crusade against sexual immorality happened when it came out that Trump’s fixer paid a porn star to be quiet about their affair during an election year. If a democrat did that the Republicans would scream for the democrat’s impeachment.

This is one thing that I don’t understand. If the evangelical right would support impeachment, they would get Mike Pence, one of their own as president. Although he is tainted by yoking himself with Trump. His social policies would be the same as Trump’s. But do they do that? NO! They double down on Trump. They say he is chosen by God. They call him a modern day King Cyrus. A gentile leader who will save American Christianity.

One thing that I hate is when the religious right compares Donald Trump to King David. Yes King David committed adultery and murder but he repented. Trump has never repented from anything. The analogy is not apt, it is borderline blasphemous. King David had faults but he was humble before the Lord.

I have written blogs and made videos about homosexuality. How I believe through context that the Bible was condemning cultic prostitution, forced sodomy (actually forced sodomy is redundant. Because the wicked men who wanted to rape the angels to put them in their place and the wicked men in Judges 19 who wanted to rape the stranger that the Levite gave hospitality to is the sin of sodomy) and the Greek practice of older men having sex with teenagers. The Bible doesn’t condemn nor endorse same sex marriage. I support it because I believe if two people love each other they should be able to spend the rest of their lives together and get the benefits that straight couples do.

I also think that social conservatives should support it because those in committed marriages are less likely to engage in “the gay lifestyle”. It is like the religious right are stuck in the late 70’s and early 80’s and believe that “the gay lifestyle” is the bathhouse culture of indiscriminate sex and drug use. Like Robin Williams said in “Man of the Year”.

Tom Dobbs: [at a presidental debate] You want an amendment against same sex marriage! Anyone who’s ever been married knows it’s always the same sex!

You compare Mayor Pete Buttigieg to Donald Trump. You have a man in a loving marriage, a veteran, a Rhodes scholar and an Episcopalian who loves the Lord and actually follows His teachings versus a thrice divorced draft dodger who bragged about trying to commit adultery and paid off two porn stars and is everything that God warned us against.

And who of the two are the religious right calling a sexual degenerate, a threat to America’s sexual morality? The man who violated his sacred married vows at least 3 times and bragged about “grabbing women by the pussy” or the man in a loving committed marriage. Of course it is Mayor Pete.

I would love to see that presidential race. It would be a match of true opposites. But I do have to say something that may be controversial after thinking about it. I think that there is something about Mayor Pete that I find very disturbing and that may make it very hard for me to support him as president. He is a millennial and younger than me. I don’t know if I am ready to vote for president a man who is younger than me. But for the good of my country I may have to put my vanity aside and vote for a man who was is too young to remember rocking out to Walk Like An Egyptian, to have a crush on Punky Brewster, or to have seen Back to the Future in the theater and understand and enjoy it.And you know what that might not be a bad thing.

And my best friend Dok agrees and wanted me add. He never watched Gobots, the Real Ghostbusters, Garfield and Friends, Rainbow Bright, or Gem and the Holograms, or played Duck Hunt on Nintendo but he would also bite the bullet and vote for someone younger than him.

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Lust Part One or Porn the Cyber Succubus

For those who expect me to speak about Trump, you have to wait. There is enough to talk about him and his sexual sins and the hypocrisy of those who condemn married homosexuals while supporting a thrice married man who bragged about committing adultery and paid off porn stars so they would not talk during an election year. That is the topic of my next blog. This blog may be all over the place and for that I apologize.

This one is about me and society. As I said in my previous blog, lust is one of the strongest sins within me a close second to sloth. I have struggled with lust ever since puberty when I found my father’s porn stash. I believe every generation Xer had a father who had a porn stash and their first dealings with sex came from a Playboy, a Penthouse, or a Hustler magazine. Now it is completely different there are videos of things we could never have thought of in our wildest dreams.

There has only been one significant period of time that I didn’t use visual porn. I became a Christian on September 29th 2008. I lasted until June of the following year. Looking back I don’t know how I did it. When one becomes a Christian you are so in love with God and the idea that you completely change but bad habits do have a way of creeping back into your life. First with pictures then with videos. And things have just gotten worse since.

Sin turn things all twisted. Sexual desire is a healthy and fun thing when in a healthy loving relationship but lust twists it. Sex is a commodity. Sex becomes using someone for your own pleasure not a shared fulfilling and fun experience. Sometimes it is people using each other to feel some sort of connection, to fill some sort of need. For me it fills the hole of loneliness.

Many people with depression and anxiety self medicate with drugs and alcohol, I sometimes self medicate with pornography. What I am looking for is the intimacy. And while using feels good physically and even gives me a rush emotionally, mentally and spiritually i am drained afterwards. Someone once said “if you can’t eat from the banquet you will eat from the trash.”

There are hundreds of channels on Pornhub catering to every fantasy or fetish. The most popular fetish is “stepmother/stepson” and “stepbrother/stepdaughter”. This reminds me of Leviticus 18

Almost every act described can be found on pornhub barring bestiality and the sacrificing of children to Moloch. Gay for pay or straight girls having sex with girls and straight guys having sex with guys is just a modern version of the temple prostitutes of old. Except people are doing it for the god of money and a wealthy lifestyle instead of Asarte or Bal.

I have checked out almost every channel they have and I feel disgusted with myself afterwards. Many of these channels have videos that are abusive and borderline criminal. One of the things that prevents me from going back is the thought that this is someone’s daughter, sister, or wife. The porn industry swallows and spits out young women and men leaving them destroyed.

I watched Hot Girls Wanted both the movie and the series on Netflix. It shows the truth of pornography about how this happens. How young women go to California or Florida seduced by the idea of money and say that they will just do solo or girl-girl but that they never will do boy-girl. But eventually the money runs out and they do decide to do boy-girl and infections, STDs and drug use ensues.

I try to quit and I keep coming back. I don’t understand the business model for pornhub and the other sites. You don’t have to pay for porn. Where are they getting their profits from? Advertising? I haven’t had to pay for porn. When you don’t have to pay for it with cash it is very easy to get addicted.

Satan uses sin one out of two ways. He gets you to accept it and think that there is nothing wrong with it or he fills you with guilt so much that you get trapped in your sins and you become no good for yourself or for God’s Kingdom.

There was the myth of the Succubus a demonic creature that would seduce men and rob them of all their energy and will and then their life. Pornography is a cyber Succubus that twists the way we view sexuality. Instead of having loving committed growing relationships it makes us shells of human beings, This is primarily true with teenagers.

Many people believe that internet pornography is a danger, in fact there is a great Facebook group called Pornography the New Drug that shows the damage porn does to young minds, love, and the brain. Studies have shown that hardcore pornography has the same effect on the pleasure centers of the brain that heroin has. I do feel like a hypocrite attacking the very thing that I partake in. But I must be open about my struggles.

I have made video blogs about this topic before, I lost a girlfriend because of my porn use. I am not for banning porn, you ban porn and it will just go underground and will be part of the criminal element. I am for legalizing and regulating prostitution for that very reason. But when it comes to internet porn, there has to be a way to prevent impressionable minds from accessing it. Even if you just have to pay $1.00 to access the now free stuff. A child would have to steal their parents’ credit card and when the statement comes due there will be hell to pay.

If a gas station owner sold pornographic magazines and had them on the bottom shelf and took it out of the bag so any child could peruse it, they would be arrested for corrupting a minor. This is the same thing that the major porn sites do. I don’t know why a bunch of States Attorney Generals sue them for corrupting minors. Force them to make it so before looking at video #1 you have to pay something.

This was not an easy blog to write. I am putting myself out there. Like I said, I have watched all kind of videos. I think the guilt from this sexual sin keeps me from speaking out for God’s Kingdom. If God gave me a prophetic voice, how can I speak against injustice, hypocrisy, and sin when I myself am caught in the web of it. I think that guilt helped feed into the sloth of not writing or speaking out.

I have tried to practice the concept of harm prevention. I am very good at list making I have made a scale based on the harm of internet pornography both visual and written.

LUST LEVEL 5 exploitative pornography. Most of pornography fit this bill. Stepmother/stepson, any kind of step incest, teachers exploiting sexy students who need “extra credit”, any videos where the girl is choked, spat upon teased, or just used as a sex object where there is no love, no intimacy just raw lust.

LUST LEVEL 4. Is exploitative written erotica. This is fiction. There are many erotica sites online. I think they are better than videos in one way because no human beings are involved. It is all fiction. But they can also be worse because in stories you can cover things that you may not be able to film.

LUST LEVEL 3 there are some “ethical erotica” sites. Some people may argue that there is no such thing as ethical pornography. But there are some hardcore sites where the storylines while being hardcore are not exploitative and are with willing partners where both the man and the woman are enjoying themselves. Now this is not ideal but this is better than levels 5 or 4

LUST LEVEL 2 these are written stories about loving couples where there is unmarried sex but it is not exploitative. There are no power games, there are no storylines involving teachers/students, mind control, step incest. Yes these stories involve unmarried couples having sexual relations and this is still indulging my sin but not as bad as Levels 5 or 4 and there are no human beings involved as in level 3.

LUST LEVEL 1 stories about erotic married couples. There is a genre of hot monogamy erotica on the net. When I am reading these stories and yes getting release, I imagine I am in that loving relationship. It is not envy but fantasy about a future time where I have a wife who I can devote all my sexual energy to her and she me. This level is hard because it is like replacing heroin with sugar. And the way addiction works your brain gets programmed that you need harder stuff to get the same release.

LUST LEVEL 0 No pornography and no erotica. No masturbation at all. I do not think that this is feasible at this time. If I was in a stable romantic relationship, yes. But because I am not now in one I am going to try to steal toward levels 1 and 2 and never indulge with levels 5 and 4

Some conservative Christians may say that this is compromising with the flesh. Maybe it is but I also know that while some people have their sins conquered all at once. With some people the Holy Spirit takes more time. And if I can go 40 days without accessing levels 4 or 5 I would consider that a victory and I know that I am not going to be able to do it without God.

There are three ways to deal with lust. I call them the three Rs. The first R is release. Just do it. If it feels good. It’s not harming anyone. I think this leads to guilt and a hollow love life and a broken relationship with God. The second R is repress. This is even worst than the first one. When you repress that sexual energy has to go somewhere and usually the one repressing ends up having an affair with their staffer, getting caught with a man in a Men’s room in the Utah airport, or end up with naked pictures of them and a pool boy. The best R is Resolve. Knowing that you are a sexual being and there is nothing wrong with that but you have to resolve to use it in a safe loving committed way.

I don’t understand adultery. If you have someone who loves you, I don’t understand how you can break that trust. Maybe it’s because I have never been in a serious relationship. Having a serious romantic relationship when struggling with anxiety and depression can be very difficult. It if I am ever blessed to find a woman who loves me and I can share my life with, I pray that I would be able to kick the porn habit and never ever cheat on her with another woman. Adultery is betrayal. A betrayal of your spouse, using the other person and if that person is married, a betrayal of their spouse.

There is a thing called #nopornovember basically a challenge to give up pornography for the month of November. I am going to participate in it. At the end of my blogs I will post how long it has been since I have been at each lust level. If you want to participate please do because people giving each other support helps us at this task. I am using the APP Quit It.

Level 5 6 days 5 hours Lust Level 4 4 days 5 hours

The Sin of Sloth or I Will Blog About It Later

Four things you have to know about me. #1 I suffer from anxiety and depression almost crippling at times. #2 I am a Christian who believes that Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life and that He is my strength even when I am weak. #3 I am weak a lot. #4 I am also lazy.

I pay one hundred dollars for a WordPress account and noticed that I didn’t post in more than half a year. That is just lazy. Although that is quite simplistic. Sloth is more than laziness.

Sloth is from the Latin word acedia. This is a description of sloth I found on Wikipidea. “Mentally, acedia, has a number of distinctive components of which the most important is affectlessness, a lack of any feeling about self or other, a mind-state that gives rise to boredom, rancor, apathy, and a passive inert or sluggish mentation”. That is a mouthful.

Basically sloth is a mindset that prevents you from doing what God put you on earth to do. Sloth keeps you from doing what you want to do. It is like a spiritual depression that makes you only want to watch reruns of the Goldbergs. You know you should do something else but you don’t really care. You make excuses not to do them.

I am a man of many dreams. I want to create a non profit Generation Now that will help fight stigma against mental illness among youth using social media, benefit shows, and performing arts clubs. I know that I should do things to make this happen. I should actively take part in the Facebook group. I should write to the National NAMI (National alliance for the mentally ill” headquarters, Active Minds, Always Keep Fighting and other groups that fight mental illness stigma to see if I could get help or support.

I want to write to celebrities like Supernatural’s Jared Padalecki or The Good Place’s Kristen Bell to see if I may get their support. But fear of rejection makes me go back to the TV, Facebook, or playing Simpsons Tapped Out.

I also am a struggling writer. Like an absent minded professor I have about a dozen partly written screenplays, short stories, or novels. I would say half written but that would be too generous. I just can’t get the energy to write. I know that I am talented but the thoughts come to me. “Why bother, I won’t succeed so why put the energy into it.”

I know I am not the only one who has dreams but lets inertia, apathy, and fear get in my way. Imagine what the world would be like if we actually followed our dreams with full gusto and allowed the Holy Spirit to give us wind to our sails.

That goes to my spiritual life. I do believe that God has given me a gift to speak out against corruption, hypocrisy, and against the religious right who have made a mockery of the Church that Christ created. But yet I don’t. I get overwhelmed by the madness that Trump has set loose in our nation. So I don’t blog, I don’t make my video blogs. Or I do and get no traction and I decide to give up.

In this series on the seven deadly sins I will discuss how they affect me and our president. Our president is a man of many sins. We all sin, don’t get me wrong. But when I sin, it affects my relationship with Jesus and maybe one or a few others. When Trump sins it affects millions. But a true follower of a Christ recognizes when they sin, repent, and try to be better. Even if we fall a thousand times, we recognize it, we apologize and we try again. Trump hasn’t repented once. His fruit is as rotten now as it was when he made his announcement that he was going to run for president.

As I said, Trump is a man of many sins. My worst and most active sins, pardon the pun, are lust and sloth. I don’t believe Trump suffers from sloth. If anything he is too active. He does too much. If pride is one extreme I think sloth is the other. It is an inertia filled with self loathing, apathy, and passive fear.

I am sick of letting my sloth keep me down. I am a child of the living God. He has given me talents that I don’t use. And if you don’t use them, you lose them. You get rusty and that is what makes sloth such a tenacious sin.

That is why I need discipline, no blog gets any traction if you only post once every four months. I have to post whether I feel like it or I don’t. If inspiration hits me, I have to get on my iPad and start typing.

This is a Christian blog so I think I will end with some scripture.

Matthew 25 (NIV)

14 “Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his wealth to them. 15 To one he gave five bags of gold, to another two bags, and to another one bag,[a] each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. 16 The man who had received five bags of gold went at once and put his money to work and gained five bags more. 17 So also, the one with two bags of gold gained two more. 18 But the man who had received one bag went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master’s money.

19 “After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. 20 The man who had received five bags of gold brought the other five. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with five bags of gold. See, I have gained five more.’

21 “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

22 “The man with two bags of gold also came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with two bags of gold; see, I have gained two more.’

23 “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

24 “Then the man who had received one bag of gold came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25 So I was afraid and went out and hid your gold in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.’

26 “His master replied, ‘You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? 27 Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

28 “‘So take the bag of gold from him and give it to the one who has ten bags. 29 For whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. 30 And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

Yes the wicked servant acted as much out of fear than sloth but that is why sloth is such an invasive sin, it prevents you from doing a God’s work and as Jesus is basically saying here “if you don’t use it you lose it”. The Holy Spirit gives us all gifts but we have to use them, we have to follow the path that God gave us to the best of our abilities, and the more you do, the more energy and passion and talent God will give you.

God Bless you guys my next blog will be about Lust and will probably be the most personal and hardest blog I have ever written.

Reverend Graham. Help Christianity and Our Nation and Rebuke Trump.

Dear Rev. Graham

I am writing this letter in hopes that newspapers will publish it and you will read it and it will change your heart and mind. I am also posting this on social media hoping it will reach you and change your heart.

You have designated this Sunday June 2nd as a national day for prayer for our president to help protect him from his enemies. You said the only hope for him and this nation is God. I believe that as well.

But I believe that you have compromised the faith. I believe that by siding with Trump you are doing more harm to the faith than help. Trump is everything that Scripture warns us about . This is from 2 Timothy 3 But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people. NIV

Trump has shown time and again that he is a mocker, a slanderer, a man with no humility and no decency, yet you give him religious cover. Yes Trump is supporting policies that may protect Christianity. But what is the point of protecting the church if we have to corrupt it in order to do it. Yoking ourselves with Trump is like a family hiring a pedophile bouncer to protect their children. Yes he will protect you from enemies without but all the while corrupting your house.

I don’t believe that you are a bad man, I think that fear and hatred has skewed and corrupted your faith. You are so afraid of Christians losing control that you have unwillingly sold your soul for political power. God has given you so many gifts. You could be using them to spread the Gospel. To show an unbelieving country that God is good. That we have a savior who died for us but also lived to show us how to truly be human.

Unfortunately Trump is the the complete opposite of Jesus. He is against all of the virtues that Jesus taught and many people including you are treating him like he is God’s anointed. Jesus said that we can not serve two masters and his whole live has been about serving himself and money.

Elijah did not ask for the Israelites to pray for Queen Jezebel. He spoke out against her corruption. Isaiah did not stand up for the status quo. He spoke up against it and his words in Isaiah 1 could describe America today. And John the Baptist spoke out against the corrupt and sexual degenerate King Herod Antipas. He did not give him religious succor.

So Reverend Graham. Be a man of God. Be like your father. Grid up your loins and unyoke yourself from this man who shows none of the fruit of the Spirit. Galatians 5 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. NIV

Yes this will be difficult. Yes some people will hate you. Those who drank the Trump flavor-aid will call you names, will attack you. Donations may dry up. But doing this with Jesus and His word backing you up will not only help you, it will help this nation and maybe will even help bring non believers to Christ.

The ball is in your court. You could rise up to this occasion and help lead a third great awakening or you could continue to do what you are doing. Being a false prophet who tarnishes the name of Jesus Christ in the eyes of the non believers.

You can do this. I believe in you but more than that I believe in a God of truth and a God of justice. The only question is do you?

Max Blaska

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